There is a small hand full of people at work I’ll talk to about somewhat personal things with. I find it funny when I happen to refer to one particular guy from my past and they think I’m taking about someone else. It’s funny cause that thing was such short lived and I would never talk about it now anyway. And I miss the friendship I’m losing with the other one. Because maybe some people can’t be just friends.
Today my teacher basically told me that I am very important to the photo department because I have the capability to deliver constructive criticism. That this is something I need to just start doing at school. Don’t hold back and to not care about what people think of me. He said some other things around that topic, but it overall everything he said was a compliment. It was an ego boost for the day. So I guess I’ll start critiquing my peers work when they don’t ask? Haha. I found this so weird that he was telling me this because just a few weeks ago I was talking to a peer about the fact that no one knows how to critique their peer’s work. Learning to take constructive criticism can be very hard for a photographer. It is definitely necessarily.
I had such a good day today. Good workout. Made good money. Today I was surprisingly positive about some things I have trouble being positive about. I hope this stays.
Sometimes I wonder if I desire to be your friend because I feel like I’m “not allowed to,” but if I was “allowed to” would we even be real friends?